I am not sure where Fitzgerald Musings fits in the whole blog universe. It is hard for me the really define what it is. On the surface it is a blog about F Scott Fitzgerald. But really it is not that simple. I am not really reviewing his work, as I am not a critic. I am not writing about his life, as I have nothing new to add and I am just learning those facts myself, and I am not really writing a fan site, not really. But in the end the name of the blog is Fitzgerald Musings and the blog is focused on his writing and his life and writings about his writings.
I guess I could have named the blog something else, like Laurie's Book Shelf, but in the end I would have spent most of the time discussing the writings of F Scott Fitzgerald, because that is who I want to read right now, and it is who I want to learn about. So Fitzgerald Musings it is.
I am not sure if I have ever really iterated my thoughts on the direction of the blog. I know I have vocalized it in conversations with friends and family, but I can't say I have really put it in writing (and if I have, here it is again).
I feel that I have something to learn from Fitzgerald's writing. Not something about how the world was in the 1920's or how beautifully Scott wrote, or even how tragic his life was. Instead, I have things to learn about myself from the lines that Scott penned. From the way he lived his life or did not live his life. I have things to learn from his mistakes and short comings and how he thought things out.
Getting a bit more personal, I have often felt like an outsider, like my thoughts are skewed or somehow not normal, and often misinterpreted.
But when I read Fitzgerald, I feel he saw things the way I would have seen them. In short, his work resonates with me. He makes me feel like we are seeing through the same eyes. But unlike Fitzgerald, I am bumbling around trying to find words that can somehow express my thoughts and feelings. He has already mastered them for me. When I read Fitzgerald I am no longer the awkward girl, I am, some how, in the know.
I am thinking about changing the name in the future, but haven't fleshed out the right change, also I am not sure if I want to mess around with it.